May 2nd, 2006 (09:52 pm)
current mood: lonely
current song: Poster Of A Girl - Metric
Absolutley brilliant. Maybe one day you'll understand.
Matthew Good - Weapon
Gain the world but lose yourself.
Couldn't sleep again last
night. It's been like that
lately. don't know why
really. Haven't really been
bothered by it for a while,
so it's back to the ceiling
watch and the numbers
and the remembrances of
faces that I've lost. Why
do I do that do you
suppose? Just like I think
Isn't he singing?
This is Jim
Jim is one of the many unsung heroes behind the scenes
that helps make the video magic seen on your telivison
possible. Without people like Jim, right now you would be
watching another channel because this one would be
blank. Then again, maybe this channel is "blank" and you
should be watching something else. It's okay, we're pretty
sure that Jim would as well, so he won't
be out of a job if you decide to grab your remote and
give it a click.
When you're at the top there's nowhere left to go but
down. That's been said in a million country songs. It's
true. As true for nations as it is for their citizens. For
when you are at the top you aspire to attain that which
cannot be attained. And in doing so achieve the ruin of
all that you have built.
There's no way to know where to go from here. It
seems to me I've been thinking about it all these
years you've been gone, like there was some big
mystery out there coming for me. But the longer I
sit here and wait for it the more I realize that it's
never going to come. That it was up to me to go
and dispel the myth of it myself. But having
realized that, It's like my feet are stuck in cement
and I can't move. You know Chris has kids now, a
boy and a girl and you'd love them. Tamer than we
were when we were little. I look at them and think
that maybe Chris had it figured out a long time ago.
That he went searching and figured out that there's
just some old man behind a curtian pulling ropes
and levers. Sometimes I want to ask him about it
but I can't bring myself to do it. What would he think
I wonder? Who would be the failure then?
Everyone's got a God to kill for.
They just all have different names.